I’m currently living in the UK, but just back from a month-long trip in Canada and the US, so here’s a timely list of how these big ITs fare on health trends: US is big on Kombucha. Pretty much all major stores stock it, whereas […]
I catch myself dragging me into unease, discomfort, worry and fear. I think about the choices I make, or I let myself feel the next right step to take – and yet, come good or bad, I quite always manage to find my way back into pain.
So let’s call that romanticising pain. It’s when you experience dis-ease for long enough that the pain this causes turns out too close to home. Personal experience: my drug of choice has always been being a loser. The one who’s left behind, who gets abandoned, and who doesn’t have the means, the ability, the love or support to make it through. I’ve lived it for so long, that a loser mentality naturally got hardwired in my brain.
Making subtle, unconscious choices that invite deep pain into my life – then successfully romanticising anything positive right back into suffering – is what fuels my loser mentality. And WHAT A BEAUTIFUL THING that is!
I love who I am today – and how greatly this twisted, beautiful thing supported me into becoming all that I am now. All of the self-inflicted pain, loser mentality, and victimage have been there for my frightened inner child and doubtful inner self. Always.
There’s no point in fighting it. Nobody really wins in a battle. Romanticising pain will always be with me, and deep within me. It’s not the only way to be, that’s true. We’ve really acknowledged each other now, though. And we are having a conversation. Releasing shame, and disrupting ancestral covenants of hiding away from the public eye.
I’m here to confess to you the many times I had waited to be saved – how my saviour never came – and how I shall not be expecting external salvage from now on. Let’s explain and expand a bit. What do I mean by waiting/wanting to […]
I have recently discovered that Maya Angelou, the renowned poet, singer, and all-around sensational woman, stopped speaking for five (5!) years after having been raped at age seven. And that made me reflect on my very own childhood and the many times I would stop speaking to, or connecting with those around me. So, what’s actually going on deep within a child who takes the radical decision of not speaking/making himself available anymore?
I have been through emotional, verbal, physical and sexual abuse, and the very basic energy that inspires such a dramatic aftermath and way of coping is one of separation. When your body, innocent self-love, and most notably, pure soul, get dishonoured, brutally manhandled and torn apart, what quickly emerges as an only viable escape is separation. And how do children achieve separation, in a situation where they’re profoundly dependable on the adult(s) providing care, safety, and nourishment?
They stop speaking to them. A child’s words and light and loving glances into his parent’s eye are – really – all they can offer, unconditionally.
So when your child next goes into separation and decides to stop speaking… shut up, sit down, and listen. Listen for the inner insights as to why this whole situation came to exist, in the first place. Look for the patterns your child is reflecting, and that so very often bring up some of your own past baggage. Worst thing you could do is to go into punishment mode. When your child stops speaking to you… that is not the time to act out of spite or out of fear. Instead, it’s the perfect moment to call forth all the love you can possibly foster, and let that do the healing 🙂
Let’s not be victims, we are never stuck. Let’s wake up to our own full potential, do the work, and reap the loving harvest!
These last few days I have had to process a great deal of low-vibration feelings and emotions. But… there’s a blessing to every situation – and the revelation I had was this: heal the vengeful inner child. We are never angry because of what we think we’re […]
Healing and growing are like peeling an onion: the deeper you go, the more you’ll cry. So let not this process dismantle you, and just now, surrender the need to understand. Hands up if – whenever something beautiful, loving, and unexpectedly good happens to you, you […]
It is my intention to grow and expand my emotional library this year. Being able to point out specific emotions helps identify exactly what needs healing. Having an extensive emotional library also equips us with clarity, which is quintessential to manifesting the goodness we dream for. So let’s learn about being EXCEPTIONAL today!
In my experience, being exceptional feels incredibly good. Doing things in an outstanding fashion and knowing full well that I’ve given my best leaves me feeling honoured and valued.
Throughout the years I have realised exceptional energy only exists in my life when I cherish my time and make sure I don’t waste it. Discipline – even though I used to hate and repel it – does attract exceptional results. Holding yourself graciously every second of the day and exuding elegance with every word and thought and deed also invites exceptional into everyday reality.
To be exceptional, in my experience, is to freely express creativity: ideas manifesting into magnetic results, which feel liquid and uncontrollably euphoric.
Living in an inner, deeper state of exceptional takes me back to my radiant, exuberant, euphoric, ecstatic self – captivated with just how brilliant and sensational human potential is.
If you’re feeling the vibe of this weekly spiritual practice, do join in every Monday. I promise you’ll learn a lot about expressing your highest truth! It doesn’t have to be hard, and we’re stronger together, so have fun and know that you’ll be better off by the end of it ?
We Let it be, and so it is!
It is my intention to grow and expand my emotional library this year. Being able to point out specific emotions helps identify exactly what needs healing. Having an extensive emotional library also equips us with clarity, which is quintessential to manifesting the goodness we dream for. […]